Fall down seven times, stand up eight.

I always used to think I could always get what I want. I always had so much determination to get it, I always used to think I had so much power. Truth is, I don't always get what I want. I mean sure, I can work my arse off for it, I can try my best and give everything I've got, but at the end of the day, we don't always get what we want. That's life.

I used to think that if I stopped believing in myself, if I stopped believing I could have anything I wanted, it would be like letting myself down. But I guess it's not, because all I can do is try my hardest and hold on to hope. I don't always get what I want. Hell, I don't even always get what I deserve. Most of the time I don't know why and I've blamed other people, but if something is wrong in my life then I am the only one at fault. I am the only one who can control my life, who can change my life, and who can 'fix' my life. Hey, maybe I do have all the power after all. 

Growing up, you start to realise how much your life feels like a lie. You begin to be old enough to know truths and gain responsibilities. You start to see how much power you have over your life. But that's just it, because your life is the only one you have power over. You cannot control someone else's thoughts, feelings, or their life. You cannot change the past, and you cannot change reality. When it comes down to it, all you can do is make a future. So that's what I'm here to do. I'm here to take back control of my life, to be in charge and really make something of myself. I'm here to make a difference and let all of you wonderful people share my journey with me.

Here's to not holding back.

Courtney's Imagination★