'Cause I'm gonna make this place your home.

I saw somebody else's blog post today with the title 'Written on a good day', and it dawned on me that my day had been relatively okay today. Yeah that's right, for the first time in a long time, I actually felt positive about something, and realised it. It's a surprisingly nice feeling, a feeling I'd forgotten about.

I done something yesterday that I should have done a long time ago. Another first time in a long time, I actually stood up for myself and I done so with a rational head on my shoulders. Travelling and living in different places for years has left me with a very complicated base to come back to between each adventure. When I last returned, I decided to stay for a while. I had no idea how long I would stay or what I would do, but it felt like the right time, to spend some time at home. It didn't feel like home anymore, and that needed correcting.

There have been so many times when I've run away from a bad place or a bad situation, I've probably mentioned it a few times before. It's funny, now it bugs the pants off me when other people run from things. Learning to be a better person means I can't run anymore. I mean, physically I could do whatever I want, but morally it's not right and it makes my life so much more complicated. More complicated is something I definitely do not need! So here I am sticking it out in a place called home, trying to 'fix' all the problems that come with it. Sure there are some things that can't be 'fixed', but I guess they will help me with that ol' acceptance issue of mine.

So, after 9 months of being here, I'd like to take a moment to welcome myself home. I don't know what the future holds for me, or where it will take place, or who will be in it. But what I do know, is that I'm on a great path once again, ready to build a wonderful life again.

Learning to love myself, all over again.

Courtney's Imagination★