This day is mine.

Before beginning to really learn about myself, I used to live my life every day not taking myself into account. I took myself for granted, and I took my life for granted. On some occasions I would think about what it really meant to me, but I never realised how lucky I was to have it.

When I woke up this morning I knew that my day would be a challenge, and however much I tried to wake up and prepare my head for the day, it just wasn't happening. In a way I would say that I began my day in the wrong way, but at the same time it was pretty perfect. It wasn't perfect because of plans I'd made or because I was in the perfect place or even because I'd had the best night's sleep, because that last one really couldn't be more opposite. It was perfect for the way it turned out, and the things I was blessed to realise.

The lack of sleep was really affecting every part of me today and when I finally drew out enough energy to jump out of bed and get dressed, I paused and embraced the moment. I seriously felt like I could not be bothered and just wanted to find some fuel for the day, but I persevered and dressed with effort and a smile, even if it was a tad forced. I wasn't unhappy by any means, but it just took a little extra work due to the will I had to be asleep.

As the day passed I was pleased I hadn't copped out of facing the world, simply because it meant I hadn't let myself down. Throughout everything I done my spirits were lacking and I did just want to curl up and sleep, but there was no way I was giving up. Sticking to my changes, I made sure I was drinking enough water and eating properly, and ended up having a pretty carefree time. Sitting in silence a while ago I began reflecting on my achievements of the day, and I could instantly see the difference in myself.

If today's morning had happened a few weeks ago, I have no doubt that I would've spent less than an hour out of my bedroom out of the entire day. I would've abandoned all positivity, excused myself from the world because I didn't feel good enough, and reassured myself that it was okay because I was just taking time out for myself to feel better. In reality it would've been very much not okay, and it would've been another day that I stood back and watched the world pass me by. I cannot count on even two hands, the number of times I have let myself be pulled down in life by my lack of confidence in myself.

I am thankful that I was able to get up today without acknowledging the possibility of giving up on it, and I am thankful that I know how lucky I am to have each day. Even when I do not have much energy, I am still able to make the most of each moment I have, and each moment I get to spend with my loved ones.

Today was like a test to me, and I passed with flying colours. I was calm, carefree, and content. That is what made my day truly perfect.

Living, loving it, and growing up...

Courtney's Imagination★