Before I even begin writing this post, I just want to apologise for any overuse of the words 'somebody' or 'someone', not only in this post, but throughout the blog. The reason for it is because this blog is about my life, and although there are many people I share my life with, I do not wish to publicly name most of them in case they may have a problem with it.
Particular happy memories have been floating around my head over the past few days, and as I began to question myself over the reason for it today, I noticed that the answer was staring me in the face. Somebody recently came into my life whom reminds me endlessly of an 'ideal image' of somebody that I used to know, of memories that I once made. I haven't quite managed to put my finger on what's causing the likeliness yet, but it feels extremely odd, in a good way. This person came into my life by chance, but they're making their mark on it simply by being themselves, and I admire that.
I could not be more grateful for the people I have in my life these days, and about the people I don't have. I have been shown the people who truly care for me and it was an eye-opener, but I can finally say and believe that it is their loss, and I am strong enough to not be held back by people I don't need anymore. Something I often find myself saying to people is 'letting go doesn't mean you're weak, or that you're giving up, it means that you're strong enough to realise that life changes, often in ways we don't expect'. I definitely said it to myself, when I didn't want to let people no longer be in my life. Then I fought through the fear. I realised that I was scared of letting people go, because I was scared of losing the memories.
I am always scared of forgetting; people, places, feelings, faces, voices, personalities, sights, sounds, etc. Even the thought fills my eyes with teardrops. But that is where I need trust myself more. Trust is a big part of life, and it doesn't just stand between 2 people.
Sometimes, the unexpected things we receive are the greatest of them all.
Sometimes, the changes that are thrown at us bring the greatest results of them all.
Often we have to let go of things to be able to get better ones.
Make wonderful memories, learn amazing things, love with gracious hearts. Do all of that and more.
But the most important one, get out there and live your life!
Courtney's Imagination★
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